I can't sleep!!!

I texted him but he did not reply.What’s up la???So damn worry but I gotta cool down.Maybe he is tired or sumthing.I believe he is not leaving without telling me anything.He promised that he is gonna tell me.I felt like I wanna laugh out lout when Wanie says how’s thing goin between me and anak pak cik Ahmad.hahahaha.She is so sensitive wif the F…..name till she had to use that guy’s dad’s name.I am sorry strawberry farm.I am not allowed to mention ur name here.I miss him like crazy but wat can I do?Juz pray to God and talk to the moon.
I really dun understand guys.Well there was a guy came into my life 4 years ago.He came but at last he left me without a single word.Wanie said wat to do,slalu tersangkut dgn jejaka yg handsome.Gosh…I dun think so it was my fault.Seriously,relationship between me and this guy it’s completely different with I felt now.(me and strawberry farm)Recently this guy apologised bout wat he did laz 4 years and the weird thing is he asked me could we start over again?Wat the HELL?He thout I am the gurl that he could simply throw and pick up again.I forgive him becoz I dun wanna hold any grudge tapi ni plak jadinya.Mmg dapat maki free la dgn I.hahaha.Lgpun I mmg tengah benggang so he mmg jd mangsa la.I mmg benggang la dh that Guy x reply my msg and this Guy duk buat hal plak.Nasib baik no ryte in front of my eyes he said all that klau x dh lama I bg penampar.(So garang.hahaha)Nk dijdkan citer,laz time lepas he left me without a word,I kena serang dgn a gurl.Sepanjang I hidup,I xpernah nk rampas hak org.Sedap mulut dia jea kata I rampas this guy dari dia.Time tu I dgn dia dh officially over for like 3 months.That gurl mmg kna teruk dgn I la.I x buat pape,suddenly kena serang…WTF,and she was the first girl yg I ever maki.I x pernah marah kaum sejenis I tapi she is over her limit.Pasal a guy,bley dia buat smua ni.Love really cause ppl to be blind.Lpas all that dh happen I mmg create jurang dgn guys…I takut benda yg sama akan happen again.As Hazeeq said,x kisah pandai mana I avoid satu hari I gonna fall again.So his words really cam etrue.I never thout I would fall for strawberry farm.Of coz la sdey things did not happen between us.I always thout things akan jd great sebab lpas 4 years I xbenarkan any guys into my heart.This time it hurts more coz I sygkan dia.He dh jadi part of me…mmg la I x dpt buktikan tapi byk org yg realised bout it.I never felt this way before and is it this is wat we call love???
I stick on to That Guy(strawberry farm)coz he blum berpunya.If he already declared that he got a gf then of coz I will be leaving.Actually I am kind of afraid that he eventually belong to sumone but he keep it as a secret.That’s y I dun dare to disturb him that often already.I x nak digelar perampas second time.Buat apa nk gaduh wif kaum sejenis juz becoz of a guy.It’s not worth it.If dh fated that he is not mine then I can’t do anything but to pray for his happiness.Love does not mean have to be together.It’s enough if the one we luv is happy.Dh 2 am…I still can’t sleep.Gosh…I really miss him.